My Thoughts Always: I Create My Own Success

Firstly, I want to say if you would like to check out my weight loss progress you can read that at Diary of a Blob.  Secondly, if you would like to see what we are doing with our home through Habitat for Humanity you can read My Habitat Home.

Let me just get right down to why I posted the links to these other blogs.  Firstly, My weight was attacked through a person that knows my husband.

Let me address this properly... I am the outcome of the childhood obesity epidemic.  If you continue to allow your child 20 piece nuggets and a mega size fry, this will be your child in 30 years.

That child will always have food on his or her mind trying to figure out how to get rid of the weight.  Don't allow your child to grow up to be this.

Now as far as an attack on my my weight, basically calling me "lazy."  As you can see In this picture I am 7 pounds from a 30 lb weight loss.  This picture is slightly off because I now weigh 235 which is only 5 lbs from the 30lb weight loss.  A "lazy" person wouldn't even try to figure out how to loose the amount of weight I've lost.  A "lazy" person wouldn't walk up and down a very steep hill every morning to get their kids off to school and to pick them up.  A "lazy" person would not sit at a table with her children as they do homework.  A "lazy" person would never consider homeschooling her child with autism.  Do you know how challenging homeschooling a child with any form of autism is?  Once I put him in public school his teacher learned it sure isn't easy.  Pulling an "A" out of him is the most difficult thing ever. 

A "lazy" person would have let her children remain in the projects under unsafe conditions, never making an effort to pursue better for her children.  With my two hands I built the walls of the bedrooms my children sleep in.  I held a hammer and nails breaking the skin under my fingernails to give them a safe, decent home.  I worked every weekend for almost two years to build this home.   My husband worked a full time job and during the weekend to build this home.  To say that either of us is lazy is an inaccurate assumption made by someone with that green eyed monster.

Now, let me just address any attack on my marriage.   Any marriage with children is something you should fight for especially if it isn't too late.  Too late means he did the nasty with a woman who doesn't wear his wedding ring.  That's the thing... those with that green eyed monster can't accept those who are completely happy with their own lives.

They spout nonsensical things about how they paid for our home, when in fact, our home is not a part of a government program.  We pay a mortgage and had to build our home.  They spout nonsense about me being a stay at home mom "on welfare" and they are "paying my way" when all we receive is food stamps.  Sorry to disappoint, I began working when I was 14.  I worked for the mayor in the city I lived in.  I chose not to sleep around as a teenager.  I chose to graduate high school, go to college, work full time, do community service, and live a life of understanding before I met my husband.

I did all that.  I never wanted food stamps.  I hate food stamps.  I worked until my doctor told me I needed bed rest to save the life of my child.  As my mom, husband, and brother planted a vegetable garden and I was not  allowed to work the dirt because I had to stay in bed.  Do you know how hard it is to not work when that's all you want to do?  It starts to drive you so crazy you begin to do things to look busy like crochet a blanket for your unborn child.

I mow my grass, not my husband.  While my husband is at work, my children are at school, I mow my yard and my neighbor's yard because she has been a very ill woman.  I built my own raised vegetable garden bed without much help from my husband.  I carried bails of straw on my own only asking for help when I didn't have enough muscle to carry dirt in a wheelbarrow.

I did all this on my own without help.  I don't need to insult others to make myself feel better.   The day that I feel that nasty is a day I will try to write and figure out what is wrong with me.  Any misery I have, as an adult, is caused solely by myself and I don't need to spew my mess on others to be mean or hurtful. I create my own success and failures.

I am in the center of my own universe and this universe, is one I control.   I suggest anyone who has something negative to say about another person learns to look within themselves first.  I don't care if you have a religion or not you will never be happy with yourself or others until you learn to fix yourself first.  Every problem I have ever had has started and ended with me and I am the key to my own success not someone who thinks they have the right answer.